in response to something i just read
or perhaps my addition or reflection or whatever you wish to call it
there are people who unite and people who divide.
so basically they either build bridges or build walls.
i guess this can be individually speaking. but i also believe there are those who divide people purposely out of either hatred or jealousy or anger or whatever it may be.
looking back its painful to see so many people whom i thought cared about me, build walls between myself and whats important to me. injecting fear and doubt and anger into me any way they could. maybe they were unaware of it but i suspect this is not the case.
and then there are times when they do both. which i have yet to have the time to analyze why this is. maybe out of guilt ? maybe out of lack of knowledge ? or simply part of the plan ?
no no, i am not looking for another opportunity to blame anyone other than myself. but coming to this realization i wish i had this understood beforehand.
but then there are also unfortunate circumstances that seem nothing less than evil works of Satan himself. All planned out as he tries to destroy anything fantastically beautiful. then one thing lands us onto the next and we are force fed negative outcomes, emotions, environments and thoughts.
i admire those who build bridges. they build bridges for others, that leads them to something positive that betters them as a person or their life. spiritually, emotionally or mentally. We dont need no crappy outside sources directing our show. choosing the menu. or writing the script.
be weary. be cautious. and be thoughtful. and also intuitive. i need to listen a little better to my soul. i need to stop disregarding the puzzle pieces as a whole. i need to wait for the good things that come after a storm. i need to stop feeding demons and feed all that is love. I need to count all my blessings and gifts and work hard. i need to pray and listen and have a strong relationship with God. Trust he wont give me more than i can handle and he knows what I need – and will provide.
i hate that ive had so little faith in Him the past little while. but he knows I didnt mean it.
God gives us all the tools and lessons we need to fulfill our needs and duties.
but we also get what we deserve. he gifts us accordingly. so work work work work work. i know i lack that extra push sometimes but maybe its for a reason. come to think of it, everything has a reason.
anyways. i want to help build more bridges and staircases and pathways and steps. i want to help people grow and be happy and find goodness and purpose and wholeness. i even want to plant more seeds – realistically and metaphorically speaking. start a garden, start foundations that help others begin growth. Growth is beautiful to watch. metamorphosis, change, building.
i want to be so spiritually alive that even ghosts become undead. no wonder this place sparks me so much joy.
then i realize i am the Lion from W.O.O. following the yellow brick road because all he needs is courage. They all have the determination to seek already obviously. theyve got the enemies trying to mess up their plans.
start connecting. BE the connection. nothing is more gratifying than connections of all sorts. maybe thats why my english exam was on that topic. Hello – here we have just connected the reason for that exam topic.
respect for the easy use of a variety of choices for that one. so happy i can now focus on MY method of learning, writing and growing. so many people choose to never think outside the box. now i know why its called ‘square’. some people ! well, its more tolerated and accepted to say the least. but im attracted to way cooler parallelograms. those who do what they want and say what they mean regardless of whether or not others will be accepting. and those who challenge others to do the same. so, are you going to believe it to see it? or see it to believe it ? a broader imagination and mind creates a broader range of capabilities and opportunities.
please remain focused. please try to do just one thing at a time. please set your goals and believe in yourself. also please always be patient. and dont be quick to blame. sometimes we come to an understanding of things later on, so explanations are not always a necessity. just do yo thang and no one needs to know why. those who matter will later make sense of it all. you know, if you couldnt explain it to a square, not ib a million years.squares and under should avoid the use of this approach.
do what you love and love what you do. never stop being the beautiful patchwork that creates all of you. you cant make people change, they either change out of choice, or lessons and growth. you can set a foundation but they do the rest.
i tried not lose track of the main point that i wanted to get across here. i seem to be babbling away again.
-you get what you give. but you should never stop giving more.
-connections are vital in all parallelograms
-patience, privacy, and trusting yourself is encouraged (and appreciated)
-initiate a growth. plant a seed. promote change.
-challenge your limits and dont settle for anything less than your dreams.
-seekers should cease to never stop the seek
-dont strive for perfect just strive for whats worth it
-ask yourself. IS IT FUN ? DOES IT MAKE ME FEEL HAPPY ? DOES IT CAUSE ME TO BECOME BETTER ? AM I NOT HARMING ANYONE ? IS THIS HELPING ME REACH MY GOALS ? DOES THIS EMPOWER OTHERS ? IS THIS POSITIVE FOR ME ? IS THIS HELPING OTHERS IN ANY WAY POSSIBLY ? DOES THIS SPARK CREATIVE ENERGY ?
the answer should be yes yes yes yes yes
just remember to keep planting more seeeeeeds.
rant over !!! or should i say, rambling… dont want this to carry on and on and on. maybe i should narrow it down to explain it more simpler.
and then it came to me.
TRUST IN GOD FOR GOD IS GOOD.