my journey of ascension is basically all the elements of being human. its about loving yourself, loving your family, taking care of your health – physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. Its like holding up a mirror to yourself, your life, being able to be comfortable in your own skin and smiling about it. Reclaiming what you thought you lost and turning a new leaf – new chapter – taking in all cosmic knowledge – and living a brand new, beautiful and hearty life – all while fending off darkness and shining a light. 🙂


can we do that again sometime
where we fall to the stars and touch the sky
the citizens watched with utter delight
counting clouds and running  through the traffic lights
somehow on the ground but im seeing from somewhere high
my feet in the air, im floating, hovering, wait,

ive never felt such exhilerating heights
how was that the most adrenaline and fun ive experienced quite possibly ever.





in this scary world id want nothing than for us to be best friends, work eachother towards our goals nobody else could ever understand, empower, laughter, fucking madness completely perfectly intertwined thus connecting a large piece of the puzzle we both yearn to finish.
i know you. i know you because i am that as well. the chaos and madness and pleasure of it all. my little reality i thought was my own but indeed i have found another inhabitant.

i cant wait.



lets be fearless and do something …. well, maybe we should keep it a secret. 😉

the little lost girl

now that my wings have blessed me to soar;
I shall let the young angel
take them
and she, too,
will fly, search, learn
and indeed she shall find her soul.

and her, too,
will be blessed
and have all her dreams
fairytales that only a child
could day dream

they, will
somehow, almost, seemingly impossibly
become her ever-dreamed reality

for angels fly and angels find
and then they relax amongst
the candly clouds
of everything
they have ever
dreamed of

and they, too,
will soar
up into the cotton candy clouds

lullabies so beautiful
that you continuously
try to hush;

but the more you silence them
the more loud they sing

for only angels
angels, hear such a hymn.

fly baby.
im falling asleep in my impossibly
beautiful desires
you will one day
float higher than these
grey, lonesome
city towers.

– for an angel.



My visit to the realm of hell

Have you, during your personal process
Experience a milestone victory
As well as a great loss
Right at the very same time ?
The kind of heart break
That is all knew.
Fetal position, muscles clenching
Heart wrenching
Shaking as you weep.
Unaware such emotional pain
Even existed
Yeah your hearts broken
But your entire self is shattered into a thousand million pieces.

You are not alone tonignt.

SO, i’ll distract myself by sharing just one of the many experiences where i have transcended into an alternate reality – this one was HELL.(literally)


I am a healer
Since i was a teenager.
Everyone used to call me special.
Id chuckle.
Good one.

Years go by
Thats when i really decide
I dont belong here.
I dont fit in.
I hate this society
Andi dont like the humans.

Were so quick to judge before we really grasp the knowledge
Of everything thats really around us

These people are awful.

And when i travelled
Through time and through realms
I visited the future and ive visited hell.

I was a foreigner in both.
It scared me how they knew
I was a visitor, uninvited
Oh they did not like me there.

If you yourself
Have travelled there as well
(Anyone can but many dont know)
At least im pretty sure they could
If they found the portal.
Hell is terrifying.
Everyone there truly looks dead
Floating, no emotion
While others are lost and sad and slumped in a chair.
Knowing i somehow got there unannounced
They were mean to me
Cause it was 90 degrees
And i wore a few heavy layers of clothes
I shivered and froze
While they endured the cold wearing springtime clothes

A kiss on top of my hand
Who are you ?
He treated me like royalty
And i instantly knew
This meant danger.
The screams and chants of voices
Coming from outside my window
Earlier that afternoon
Ordered me to go to the emergency room
Strange infection
Creeping and bubbling up my skin.

“Your arm will be amputated!”
Even the familar voices of my friends
Seemed to laugh along with the hateful audience.
I did not go to the hospital for some silly infection that was probably just another hallucination.
I let my soul do the walking.
For i knew an adventure was awaiting.

And that is how i arrived to my destination.
I was the only one catcbing the buses that nigbt
So theyd stop one stop before where i was standing
Purposely making me wait. Late.
I really had to play a game in order to get them to fucking drive.
So i walked a lot of the way
Following anything that smiled at me, friendly. Those were my signs.
Earlier my dad told me to follow the yellow brick road.
And so i realized it was a message to follow the friendly yellow CAT tractors
And indeed they led me. Like they were expecting me.
All the drivers pointed me to my destination.
..     ……

Anyways, he invited me to his house
And i knew i had to go.
Here comes another battle, i thought
I sighed, slowly payed the cab driver
For I was so scared to follow him.
Fuck. Theyre going to try to kill me

Love was my only weapon.
Who, unlike them
Often had  many things capable to kill.
He acted suspicious
Looked around the neighborhood
Oh i knew exactly what was coming.
Ive saved myself from death so many times before.
I can do it again.

He hops the fence
While i stand on the side porch
A shot gun pointed at me through the cracks.
I shook a little,
But i knew that was their intent.
Inflict Fear.

I sort of pretended i did not see him
I mean, after all, do people just shoot people?
I begged myself to stay rational.
Love conquers all. i said over and over again in my head until finally
I exhaled all my worry and fear.
“Coooome oooon whats taking you so long?”
I said it with grace and compassion
With love in my heart.
He put down the gun and even made me thank him for that.
I even chuckled a bit.
“Thaaank you”
I sounded like a giddy girlfriend of his.
He came up to me and hugged me tightly.
I felt a warmth and a fire inside him instantly.

Oh no, i thought. Right then and there he was in love with me.


TO BE CONTINUED . I am far too sleep deprived. My eyes are heavy.

P.s. i always was too afraid to share any of my experiences that had to do with travelling.

I want to share my entire story
Not the boring bits.

Thoughts i want to share on helping eachother grow spiritually.

As the tears flowed like rushing rivers down my face for longer than i can remember
As i engaged in reading content from other members
It was like messages being spoken from sources other than the author itself.
It spoke volumes as i gained insight and understanding of perpectives and answers  that i was forever longing.

After what felt like an eternity of bruising of my soul and shattered pieces
I got it all out of my system. I was, after all, lacking in taking care of my physical vessel.
Days of malnourishment and dehydration, nothing but toxins and chemicals.
Im sure the lack of attention to my body played a big role in the lack of the emotional and well being of the soul.

Finally i ate a granola bar and painfully swallowed my water.
I sat outside in our citys third winter, cold and i smoked the first cigatette in what seemed like an infinite abundance of time, although it was probably less than 24 hours. But i really dont have any grasp whatsover on the concept of time when i am so immersed into the depths of my true passion – reading and writing.

ANYWAYS . I finally took the time to read what other bloggers had to say. Realizing that this whole time i had been pretty selfish. Not realizing that input = output. And they should always be at least equal.

I thought my mind was far too complex for anyone to ever understand. I thought that my ramblings were nothing but a release of my traffic that flooded the very streets of my mind.

I was in complete awe and amazement that there are soo many like me, almost identical, with the same complexity which i always merely identified it as the abyss of my personal insanity.

And then i realized, not only is this a creative outlet for us to let our traffic flow until empty,
But its also the biggest community of support i have ever happily discovered.
I am not alone ! So many share the exact same difficulties, spirits and souls, experiences, and most importantly, journeys !!!

Every blog post i have read in the last 12 hours or more, spoke to me, either as a reflection of my own thoughts or other difficulties i yearned to have at least some understanding
And then it dawned on me that this is part of the ascension process. When you become one with the universe.

Ive never felt more relieved. Just knowing were all here, together, growing, learning, and ascending to the highest spiritual being we possibly can make of ourselves.

I felt so alone. Like i was mental and this was nothing but a tainted and weak mind. But no. We are all connected, and we are here to raise eachother up and encourage to strive on our paths of our journeys.

Such an exciting time for us !!! Lets continue questioning, supporting, offering anything whether it be simply a thank you if has helped your growth in any way shape or form. I think recognition from our fellow brothers and sisters is the most rewarding – the simple confirmation that you have indeed, contributed and helped.

Ive actually reached out and have spoken to so many today, and i could truly feel the love, care, and gratitude in my very soul. Im not just saying this either. The discovery of beautiful human beings that are made up entirely of love and empathy restored any pain i was experiencing previously. And for that i want to say thank you.

Perhaps everything we seek is on this very platform, where we have freedom of speech, we are human, and we do this because we want to. This is whats important to us. Where else can you find journeys that forever grow ? Sure, other web sources may come in handy. But there comes a time where everybody elses development is fundamental to our own, as there is so much we can learn from eachother all while encouraging, developing, and expanding together which ultimately is, i believe, a very important part of the process.

Ahhhh. What a great epiphany this has been.


My volunteer experience in the work field – long lost draft – retrieved

It started with someone whom I perrceived as the Ultimate Champion
He had it all. The looks, the nice big guns, the ability to do so much socializing in so little Time.
I was in complete Lust
I was in complete Denial.
Which manifested eventually into Anger and Fear.
I played with Fire. I played wirh Ice and I played with the Air and finally the Water

I knew I wasn’t just different. I knew I could potentially create something out of all the madness. I mean, i had before, after all, shocked myself when my thoughts manifested right in front of me.

So, the reality of it was, that I had just acquired some important informaation that would further me down my road to Understanding, Knowledge and finally, Enlightnent.

By taking everything I knew and applying the knowledge in the correcr aeeas, I could potentially create a brand new world of data, not for myself, but for those in need of whatever it is , whether its New System Proposals or Prosperity of a Region.

I  pledge Allegiance.to the Unity of all Nations, under Freedom and Liberty,
To the Law.that all Knowledge is
Of Metaphysical Matters and Time, and in which does not depict a Reality other than mty own, and finally, to keep the Govern’s best interest always at Heart.

If we were having coffee

Got lots of reading done today. Brand new information stored in my brain. Each time, becoming one step closer to my fulfilled destiny. A long and winding staircase, ascending. I feel i am completely enlightened although i know there is always something new to be learned.

Im still so confused with todays acquired knowledge. I have failed to apply to most important piece of it all. Sure, it would explain a lot. But giving into that thought i am hesitant, for nothing is certain, and im terrified of being deceived.

I live in a terribly contradictive and paradoxal reality. Its exciting, mystical but not comprehendable at times. In fact, for years i thought i had some sort of entitlement, or significant importance, either that or i was suffering from a form of schizophrenia, a mental case on the verge of being institutionalized.

Although my true first acknowledgement of my understanding and awakening occured around a year ago, little did I know that for years i was actually practicing everything i was about to learn. All those days and nights of tedious, at times gruesome experiences and walking the streets for days with nowhere to go. Nothing made sense to me and i became scared of the only world i knew. Completely stripped of all my faith, trust, and my simple black and white perspective of the world. Out the window. I questioned everyone and everything. And fighting my obscene thoughts was exhausting. I lived everyday in fear and shame, confining myself indoors. Away from… whatever it WAS out there.

I knew in my heart that all the puzzle pieces had a meaning and i wasnt simply just a psycho. The feeling that it would all make sense to me one day was robust. I had a ravenous curiosity and hunger for more. Even when death knocked on my door more than once, i never backed down. I simply had to grasp the concept of this THING, PLACE, EXISTENCE, in which scared the fuck out of me and was intriguing all at the same time.


And thats exactly what i did. Over and over and over again until finally i was led to the beginning of the truth and grasped some concept. The point is to never stop reading. I used to feel cheated after i found out there were so many others like me and that perhaps i wasnt so special after all. But indeed we are, and knowing that so many others can relate, and are going through the same, and that im not alone and completely losing my mind, it made me very very happy.

So, ive definitely reached a great place in my spiritual growth. My understanding of my purpose and just everything has never been better. Theres still so much i need to discover though, about myself and those who are close to me. I want to spread the word and help any way i can. In fact, your journey is entirely up to you. YOU decide whether or not to keep going. I almost gave up but im glad i didnt. I was tricked by a wrongful source which led me to almost bend and break.

For laying inside my childish figment of imagination is the only thing that makes sense and inspires me. I hope other creative thinkers embrace their gifts rather than toss them aside feeling sheepish. Listen to your soul. It will guide you.

If we were out for coffee.. i would ask you to tell me your story.

Enjoy some quotes from the one and only albert einstein. Great minds think alike !

Encourage others to seek their path.

A wise man knows not to share his secrets.

“Now i understand why you pushed me away

I looked far and now i see, that the only one i needed was me.”


The process is freightning, exciting, disbelieving, surreal, amazing and tiring all at the same time. When your soul is prepared it will begin. Brace yoself ! P.S. self confidence is KEY to the success of ascension as well as filtering out all the negative that could potentially present itself during the process.


Peace love and light ! ♡

Isnt it funny?

I find it kind of funny
All your life
Youve searched
For something
Something that feels like home.

You search far and wide
High and low
Broad and far
Friends and foes

And its funny
How everything youve ever wanted
has been…
Right under your nose.
All along
Years and years
A decade
With nothing but fears
And then its.clear

Why havent you acknowledged
Your very own
The one
Youve been dreaming of
Your best friend
Lover ?
I couldnt comprehend
Until fate came to its end
Showed us the way
To our happy end

Is it true
Do you love
Me like
Through it all
Thick and thin
Good and bad
Black and white
Dark and light
But fear and fright
Took over
But only the strongest
Can conquer

So what will it be?
You and me?
Do you love me?
Even when im funny ?
The drugs and the phoney ?
That you know it aint me ?

You see right through me
I see all perspectives
My eye and your perseverance
Your fears and my
But one day
Can you promise me?

It will be you and me
Your darkness
And mine
And our light
Perfectly unite
Peace and love

Im sorry
Im high
This is me
The depth
Of the chemical death
I pour unto myself
For my creative health
But now you seem to know
I dont need  no help

Why am i writing
About this
Were just friends
Right ?
You created this
A crisis
Dont break this
A heart already
Full of mistrust

Do you know
The life ive lived
Sadness, sorrow,
Lows and Lifts

Are you home
Is this
Just another
Let down
Make me
Our crowns
We can wear
And together
We can be forever

Grow old
Drink from the fountain of youth
Well, i’ll take you there.

But we both know where it is
Dont we?


You surprised me.tonight.
Please dont leave me
In this life.
My best friend
My other half
My honest sight
You tell me
I choose
I choose

I always.sort of have.

Thank you for all these years
By my side
Thick and thin
And terrifying
Moments of life

Are you the last
The game
Of my

I love you.

More than anything
And anyone
Whos ever made appearences
In my show
My game of fun
Lame and dumb

I think to myself
He must prove
The love
The real
He fell
I cant tell
His heart
It doesnt swell
Does it ?

Like the others
“Oh, shes a special one
Colorful and care free
Fearless and full.of fire
That even her lies are pretty
Pretty as hell
Its just what she does.

Takes hearts
Steals souls
Theyll remember
Her name
Its cold
Say it
Do you miss me
Are you proud
Is this what you wanted
And now
I am just another face
In another crowd

It wont be allowed.
After a decade
Far too long
You cant walk away
Dont mark my name
Into the clouds
To fly away
With the wind
Am i high?
Off of artificial
Fake ass compounds

Oh, id love to be yours
I dont know when
Perhaps not know
But in 10 years
10 years.from now
When im dead
Dead and.gone
Remember me

I am
A ghost
A busy

Without a soul

Are you my enemy
Or are you the unity
In which my body
And heart
Which has turned
Black, Dark

Day dreams

Do you think you know me ?

Take a second guess.
My mind is a never ending
And sad abyss

Oh, you love me
But you dont know any of this
Im happy
Life is bliss

And fulfillness

Take my hand
Grab your rocket ship
Leaving for venus
Its you
Its me
And youthfulness

Forever young
Lets.leave this.all behind
And move.up on the spectrum

Pardon me
For grammar errors
Of this whole letter
“These words are my heart and soul”
You seek attentiion ?
Well heres your satisfaction.

Important information.
Logical realization.
No, wait.
Nothing in this world is
Nothing but fiction

What we dont know
Human beings
History repeating
Over and over


Its balance

Without this
It would be
And without life.
Think before you fight.
Without darkness
There is no light.

Without confidence
There is no fright

Without sadness
There is no happiness
Skies that are bright

Without daylight
There is no night

Without wrong
There is no right

No sun
No moon
Just dust

Without black
There is no life.

Without death
There is no life.

Live your life.
Be who you want.

I wont waste my life being a color.
A shade
A front

I am me

You are you

We shall be


In unity.


Hi !!! Good night.


Youre weird
Im weird too
We can live.forever young
Forever fools
Like children
If we want to.

I love you


Stars are Blind

“You left in peace
Left me in pieces
Too hard to breathe”

You dont even know what you did to me.
Now i just wanna say im sorry

I dont ever want anyone to fall in love with me
Its just way too risky

If im not in love with them too
Karma will come back after me
Break me down all over again
When im least expecting it

Now im scared
I used to fall so fast and so hard
I just cant do it anymore.

Im left with so many scars
Ill never let anyone sweep me off my feet again
Im never going to trust a single person again
I dont even know what to think anymore
My mind is in a constant war
Please show me truth

A taste of heaven
Ended far too soon
Perhaps it was a lesson
To know what heaven feels like.

A taste of my own medicine
Those were not my intentions
I did not even take it that far
What happened was fucking harsh

I was fine all by myself
Now i want someone else
I want that more than anything
It makes me want to cry
I dont know who runs this place
Im falling from grace
So much in me has been erased

Art attack
Magic thats black
Put your coat on the rack
Sell your soul for a sack
I feel so off track
This was more than i could hack
I heard everyone clap
Was it just a trap
I dont want to attack
Someone give me a map
I need to find my way back
The time before all this crap
Someone give me some facts
Mice running from cats
All they do is laugh
I shouldnt fucking do that
But im a star at least and i live for the applause


Yet another journey

Hello again my friend.
I see you there.
Do you know its me ?
Ive come to ghost town
Where its 90 degrees.

I see you sitting in that chair.
Slumped over by the fire.
I walked a thousand miles
In the blizzarding snow.
I didnt think id see you there.

I miss you, dear friend.
I know now you watch over me.
I wish i could always visit you
im not sure why you were there
Its not where you should be.

Must i keep travelling
Or does it ever end
This world is becoming freaky
I went to a place
Too many times
I dont belong there
Now i know why they chase me.

I get bored.
The shift is sometimes good for me.
I dont want to hurt anyone.
So please dont hurt me.
Karmas already done its job.

Wont you let me come by ?
Every once in a while ?
To feel love again
And make you smile

I get scared
Its a scary place
I cant recognize anything
Or anyones face

Although its rather strange
I find it quite interesting.
I didnt mean to spill my secrets
Should i keep it to myself ?
I hope im doing the right thing
Its impossible to tell

I fell down again.
The universe pushed me down.
Im getting back up now
And going back to my hometown

Was it all a dream ?
Was it nothing but a fantasy
Imagination play time reality ?
I find it kind of funny
What is life if youre not happy ?

Do what makes you happy.
Thats all im doing.
Im sorry for hurting anyone.
Its not my intention.
Karma got me bad.
So dont worry about that.

City of angels
City of the dead
City of the living
Upside-down town
But where is heaven

Its hard to see
But everything is right here.
On this earth
Walking in circles
Set us free
Show us peace

Lost souls
Sad and broken
Help them be ready
Fly away to the next galaxy

Ive been to hell and back too many times to count.
Ive experienced heaven in someones arms.
Ive experienced tragedy, love and loss
Ive experienced so much more than any person should.

I regret none of it.
A surreal life  is better than a boring one.
But i must live a normal life
Somehow there ive found some fun.

I learned many lessons
All in one week.
I know i had to
And have this complete.

Theres good in the bad
And bad in the good.
Love hurts.
Dont be vulnerable.
But find someone to grow old with
Its better than being alone.

“They say that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels”

This worlds upside down
Hanging by a string
How many saviours can we find
Before we all die

Are we real
Is this a game
When i die
I want fame
Courage love sunshine and fire
Youre going to remember my name.