ride

can we do that again sometime
where we fall to the stars and touch the sky
the citizens watched with utter delight
counting clouds and running  through the traffic lights
somehow on the ground but im seeing from somewhere high
my feet in the air, im floating, hovering, wait,
levitating

ive never felt such exhilerating heights
how was that the most adrenaline and fun ive experienced quite possibly ever.

in this scary world id want nothing than for us to be best friends, work eachother towards our goals nobody else could ever understand, empower, laughter, fucking madness completely perfectly intertwined thus connecting a large piece of the puzzle we both yearn to finish.
i know you. i know you because i am that as well. the chaos and madness and pleasure of it all. my little reality i thought was my own but indeed i have found another inhabitant.

i cant wait.

lets be fearless and do something …. well, maybe we should keep it a secret. 😉

encouragement best explained

so

whats it gonna be?

running in fields of ecstasy?

high green blades of grass

wishing on the feathers of dandelions

a feeling you once knew

a fleeting escape your soul creates fast

look on the bright side

your hearts still beating to fight

to keep it together

yeah, i got it all together

emotions opposite of the weather

maybe thats what we need.

a lover at the other end of the spectrum

how else will you conquer balance ?

and balance, we need

so desperately

to keep all things

humanity, society, some part of me

at peace.

so whats it gonna be ?

are you yet realizing ?

 

the yin and the yang aint just some decorative thang.

oh how i love the flow of the words stuck in my brain

in fact, missing

but the glass house seeks to destroy the lost and retained

a window,  a screen, a sliver piercing our feet

they couldnt help it

and so the apple they eat

but i dont mind giving away my fruit

and my pieces of loot

after all, i am nothing without all of you.

and you can steal a little bit of my spark

to light up your ghostly existance, self, dark

but i wish not to break yet another heart

am i fool and just causing more harm?

can i be happy, comfortable, and stable yet ?

karma holds no more debt

although free, i am set

to sit, stop and rest

and give up the trials and tests

i just want something, something for nothing

 

… woops ! this is supposed to be encouraging.

so to all those who are out there in the battlefield

i want you to remember that love is your shield.

and when youre broke and cant get up

dust yourself off and dont give up.

cause light is brighter than the dark.

know your purpose and your worth.

 

you may never go to some university

but trust me

the warmth you carry around,

your smile as you walk around

your mysterious aura

your beauty leaving others astound

such angelic ways you should wear a crown

touching lives of those who always frown

honey, dont be so down

blood may not be but God is proud.

 

 

just do what drives you to be happy in upside down town.

which is being happy. so be happy. and youll simply be happy.

 

 

 

Stars.

Yeah i wont lie

My worst enemy is my own mind

But its not my fault

Thats just the beauty of design

Fuck, im crazy.

Completely nuts,

They could easily throw me in an asylum

So i keep my mouth shut.

At all times, about everything.

You will know when its time

A tid bit of a secret you kept locked inside

Can be shared with someone special.

Like you. Us. He wont judge. Laugh.

He wont leave you hanging in silence.

Instead you will feel the ultimate energy

Of a mind whom all its life

Lived, feeling insane, suppressed

It lights up with joy and intense excitement.

Sharing our unwordly ideas and beliefs together may be manifesting into something bigger.

What happens when 2 powerful minds are combined ?

See, he’s further gone than me

But doesnt make him any less than me.

They got to him

I wish he learned what i did for survival.

Play Along. Laugh. Retaliate – dont let yourself be bullied. We are not fucking dumb, and im sick and tired of people like YOU making people like US feel like theres something wrong with us.

Humanity is awakening and theres no stopping what we can do now. Embrace your gifts, magic, light, let it flow all around you, let it move mountains or manifest miracles, i used to be afraid to shine but thats what stars are MEANT to do baby.

Can we put the missing pieces together

And figure this out

Us out

This
Then
That

All
Of
It
Out

My visit to the realm of hell

Have you, during your personal process
Experience a milestone victory
As well as a great loss
Right at the very same time ?
The kind of heart break
That is all knew.
Fetal position, muscles clenching
Heart wrenching
Shaking as you weep.
Unaware such emotional pain
Even existed
Yeah your hearts broken
But your entire self is shattered into a thousand million pieces.

You are not alone tonignt.

SO, i’ll distract myself by sharing just one of the many experiences where i have transcended into an alternate reality – this one was HELL.(literally)

I am a healer
Since i was a teenager.
Everyone used to call me special.
Id chuckle.
Good one.

Years go by
Thats when i really decide
I dont belong here.
I dont fit in.
I hate this society
Andi dont like the humans.

Were so quick to judge before we really grasp the knowledge
Of everything thats really around us

These people are awful.

And when i travelled
Through time and through realms
I visited the future and ive visited hell.

I was a foreigner in both.
It scared me how they knew
I was a visitor, uninvited
Oh they did not like me there.

If you yourself
Have travelled there as well
(Anyone can but many dont know)
At least im pretty sure they could
If they found the portal.
Hell is terrifying.
Everyone there truly looks dead
Floating, no emotion
While others are lost and sad and slumped in a chair.
Knowing i somehow got there unannounced
They were mean to me
Cause it was 90 degrees
And i wore a few heavy layers of clothes
I shivered and froze
While they endured the cold wearing springtime clothes

A kiss on top of my hand
Who are you ?
He treated me like royalty
And i instantly knew
This meant danger.
…….
The screams and chants of voices
Coming from outside my window
Earlier that afternoon
Ordered me to go to the emergency room
Strange infection
Creeping and bubbling up my skin.

“Your arm will be amputated!”
Even the familar voices of my friends
Seemed to laugh along with the hateful audience.
I did not go to the hospital for some silly infection that was probably just another hallucination.
I let my soul do the walking.
For i knew an adventure was awaiting.

And that is how i arrived to my destination.
I was the only one catcbing the buses that nigbt
So theyd stop one stop before where i was standing
Purposely making me wait. Late.
I really had to play a game in order to get them to fucking drive.
So i walked a lot of the way
Following anything that smiled at me, friendly. Those were my signs.
Earlier my dad told me to follow the yellow brick road.
And so i realized it was a message to follow the friendly yellow CAT tractors
And indeed they led me. Like they were expecting me.
All the drivers pointed me to my destination.
..     ……

Anyways, he invited me to his house
And i knew i had to go.
Here comes another battle, i thought
I sighed, slowly payed the cab driver
For I was so scared to follow him.
Fuck. Theyre going to try to kill me
AGAIN.

Love was my only weapon.
Who, unlike them
Often had  many things capable to kill.
He acted suspicious
Looked around the neighborhood
Oh i knew exactly what was coming.
Ive saved myself from death so many times before.
I can do it again.

He hops the fence
While i stand on the side porch
A shot gun pointed at me through the cracks.
I shook a little,
But i knew that was their intent.
Inflict Fear.

I sort of pretended i did not see him
I mean, after all, do people just shoot people?
I begged myself to stay rational.
Love conquers all. i said over and over again in my head until finally
I exhaled all my worry and fear.
“Coooome oooon whats taking you so long?”
I said it with grace and compassion
With love in my heart.
He put down the gun and even made me thank him for that.
I even chuckled a bit.
“Thaaank you”
I sounded like a giddy girlfriend of his.
He came up to me and hugged me tightly.
I felt a warmth and a fire inside him instantly.

Oh no, i thought. Right then and there he was in love with me.

TO BE CONTINUED . I am far too sleep deprived. My eyes are heavy.

P.s. i always was too afraid to share any of my experiences that had to do with travelling.
BUT WE HAVE FREE WILL AND FREEDOM OF SPEECH.

FUCK CENSORSHIP.
I want to share my entire story
Not the boring bits.

Too high, cant come down

“She’s something mystical in colored lights
So far from typical but take my advice
Before you play with fire do think twice
And if you get burned don’t be surprised

Got me lifted, drifted higher than the ceiling
And ooh, baby, it’s the ultimate feeling
You’ve got me lifted, feeling so gifted
Sugar, how you get so fly?”

-‘Sugar’ lyrics.

Well

I float through the streets

Smile at every face i meet

Striding on air with my feet

 

My heart is not taintef.

Im aware of the ugliness

I see this whole space naked.

You know the situation.

 

I hide away for a few days.

Speed through time in a haze

Alone, numb, absurd craze

Its the only real escape.

 

My tiny corner.

Felt like home now.

Faster than i know

Springs gone and it starts to snow.

 

Now i lay here

My thoughts, they come without invite.

I feel you with me

But youre nowhere in sight.

 

Why hello, its me again.

Just me myself and i.

Bulging spider eyes.

I was told big girls dont cry.

 

I know that when your world

Crumbles

In the palm of your hand

Just when you thought

You had it all under control

 

So here i shall rest my head

Under yellow skies and fire sunsets

I wont be scared, i wont bend

I know ill be alone till the end.

 

You casted your cruel spell.

It worked im sure you can tell.

You see, i didnt express things well.

Your own personal hell

But im not able to carry such a shell.

 

Its all going wrong.

Lust, friendships, gone

But somehow i am carried along.

So to you, i say, so long my love

We had only just begun

But all i hope is you stay strong.

 

I burn my candles all night

Flame in the dark

It feels so right

I can only relax when its black

Tiny spark for a little light.

 

We’re better off on our own.

I know its bitter and cold

I know nothing never lasts

A city with a cruel forecast.

 

I do what i want when i feel like it

So i cave in and take another hit

That one was perfect

What a rush, what a lift

Up to the clouds my body drifts

 

Downtown pedestrians

I am among them

I hold my head high

Passing each stranger saying hi

Oh i remember you !!!

From work, right ?

From back in time

From our ecstatic heights

 

You know

All day long ive contradicted.

Who you were, searching conclusion

You threw it in my face

Perhaps we both played our own game

From everyone i’ll forever run away

 

Life is a story. A novel. A movie.

Youre allowed to make your own ending

I wont ever live life, descending

I am me, theres no pretending

Hearts i am mending

Messages i am sending

Do you hear me ?

But everything you hold onto is condescending.

 

Someday i will understand.

For now i follow no such plan.

Take in the air and breathe.

Feel the soil under your feet.

I think i’ll be fine with just me

Thats how its always been

Walking aimlessly and incomplete

Oh, baby.

 

What goes around comes back around.

Keep an eye on things you take

Things you break

Even innocence has to pay.

 

Starry galaxies i play in, paint

Im looking for my milky way.

Oh father, wont you show me the way ?

Come take me away

No, because

I must love another day.

 

I know the scenario all too well

For my magic the people fell

Karmas a harsh bitch all too real

Got me bad. Hurting quite well.

 

You either got the goods or you dont.

People try, but only i can own.

They try to steal it but they wont.

 

Hearts racing driving like an aninal

Im feeling like a cannibal

Dont give in baby, no

Ride the ocean carefully and slow

 

All the souls in the world

I still want yours

Never did i feel

Felt like that before.

Unafraid, my authentic self.

 

Been running in the field

Yeah, the glass road

Far too long now.

I sit down to smoke.

Thick milky clouds

Reminds me of something i used to know.

 

Im tripping ?

Its your fucking fault

I hold on though, slipping

Gripping

Yeah, you cant mess around with the living.

 

Tonight i ponder

Its midnight

Others, too, psychotic

Their demons play well with mine

Adding to my fuel and tactics

Enemies turning into friendly

Familiar and fun add ons

Yes, hold on my hand

Its so intriguing there.

 

Turn out the light now

Its playtime now

Beautiful and menacing

Tonight we dont need no sleep.

 

Starry eyes

Deep

Twin of the Pacific

I dare you to be specific

Whered you learn those tricks ?

I want to know what makes you tick

Youre so fucking hard to resist

Im ready for this.

 

 

 

 

If we were having coffee

Got lots of reading done today. Brand new information stored in my brain. Each time, becoming one step closer to my fulfilled destiny. A long and winding staircase, ascending. I feel i am completely enlightened although i know there is always something new to be learned.

Im still so confused with todays acquired knowledge. I have failed to apply to most important piece of it all. Sure, it would explain a lot. But giving into that thought i am hesitant, for nothing is certain, and im terrified of being deceived.

I live in a terribly contradictive and paradoxal reality. Its exciting, mystical but not comprehendable at times. In fact, for years i thought i had some sort of entitlement, or significant importance, either that or i was suffering from a form of schizophrenia, a mental case on the verge of being institutionalized.

Although my true first acknowledgement of my understanding and awakening occured around a year ago, little did I know that for years i was actually practicing everything i was about to learn. All those days and nights of tedious, at times gruesome experiences and walking the streets for days with nowhere to go. Nothing made sense to me and i became scared of the only world i knew. Completely stripped of all my faith, trust, and my simple black and white perspective of the world. Out the window. I questioned everyone and everything. And fighting my obscene thoughts was exhausting. I lived everyday in fear and shame, confining myself indoors. Away from… whatever it WAS out there.

I knew in my heart that all the puzzle pieces had a meaning and i wasnt simply just a psycho. The feeling that it would all make sense to me one day was robust. I had a ravenous curiosity and hunger for more. Even when death knocked on my door more than once, i never backed down. I simply had to grasp the concept of this THING, PLACE, EXISTENCE, in which scared the fuck out of me and was intriguing all at the same time.

And thats exactly what i did. Over and over and over again until finally i was led to the beginning of the truth and grasped some concept. The point is to never stop reading. I used to feel cheated after i found out there were so many others like me and that perhaps i wasnt so special after all. But indeed we are, and knowing that so many others can relate, and are going through the same, and that im not alone and completely losing my mind, it made me very very happy.

So, ive definitely reached a great place in my spiritual growth. My understanding of my purpose and just everything has never been better. Theres still so much i need to discover though, about myself and those who are close to me. I want to spread the word and help any way i can. In fact, your journey is entirely up to you. YOU decide whether or not to keep going. I almost gave up but im glad i didnt. I was tricked by a wrongful source which led me to almost bend and break.

For laying inside my childish figment of imagination is the only thing that makes sense and inspires me. I hope other creative thinkers embrace their gifts rather than toss them aside feeling sheepish. Listen to your soul. It will guide you.

If we were out for coffee.. i would ask you to tell me your story.

Enjoy some quotes from the one and only albert einstein. Great minds think alike !

Encourage others to seek their path.

A wise man knows not to share his secrets.

“Now i understand why you pushed me away

I looked far and now i see, that the only one i needed was me.”

 

The process is freightning, exciting, disbelieving, surreal, amazing and tiring all at the same time. When your soul is prepared it will begin. Brace yoself ! P.S. self confidence is KEY to the success of ascension as well as filtering out all the negative that could potentially present itself during the process.

 

Peace love and light ! ♡

I cant stop.

BULL FUCKING SHIT.
second time now.
Beautiful work. Wasted.
Dont forget about our
FREE WILL

FUCK YOU !

cant handle.me ? Cant handle the truth ?
Cant handle the reality being exposed ?
Then get out of my world
This is my reality
I make my own rules
I created my own game
And i wrote the instructions
Dont like it ?
Take a hike then.

Yeah, my minds too fucked for its own good
But sanity never proved to be fun
Yet another mixture
Chemical
Compounds
Jokes
Laughter

Oh, laugh. Wont you ?
I want to see you happy.
You hate me, so its crazy
But thats just me
My sunshines all around this block
This street
My own world
Its mine
Chaos, madness, peace and sleep
Dreams, sleep walking, alive and living
Walking, laughing, thinking and creativity
In which we can express in any way we please
So stop the fuckery
And stop messing with me
I can drcide my own society
Sane, psychotic, or incomplete
Yeah, thats it.

My work here is not done.
Nor is it incomplete

Work in.progress
Growing tree
Wandering soul
Not lost
Just free.

JUST BE YOURSELF

AND DO WHAT MAKES YOU HAPPY

CAUSE THOSE WHO MATTER DONT MIND

AND THOSE WHO MIND DONT MATTER.

 

enjoy  the gift of life.

Isnt it funny?

I find it kind of funny
How
All your life
Youve searched
For something
Something that feels like home.

You search far and wide
High and low
Broad and far
Friends and foes

And its funny
How everything youve ever wanted
HOME.
has been…
Right under your nose.
All along
Years and years
A decade
With nothing but fears
Tears
And then its.clear

Why havent you acknowledged
Your very own
The one
Youve been dreaming of
Your best friend
But….
Lover ?
I couldnt comprehend
Until fate came to its end
Showed us the way
To our happy end

Is it true
Do you love
Me like
Through it all
Thick and thin
Good and bad
Black and white
Dark and light
But fear and fright
Took over
But only the strongest
Can conquer

So what will it be?
You and me?
Do you love me?
Even when im funny ?
The drugs and the phoney ?
That you know it aint me ?

You see right through me
I see all perspectives
My eye and your perseverance
Your fears and my
Immaturity
But one day
Can you promise me?

It will be you and me
Your darkness
And mine
And our light
Perfectly unite
Peace and love
Tonight

Im sorry
Im high
This is me
Accept
The depth
Of the chemical death
I pour unto myself
For my creative health
But now you seem to know
I dont need  no help

Why am i writing
About this
Were just friends
Right ?
You created this
A crisis
Dont break this
A heart already
Full of mistrust

Do you know
The life ive lived
Sadness, sorrow,
Lows and Lifts

Are you home
Or
Is this
Just another
Illusion
Another
Let down
Dont
Make me
Feel
Like
Another
Clown
Frown
Our crowns
We can wear
And together
We can be forever
Young.

Never
Grow old
Again
Drink from the fountain of youth
Well, i’ll take you there.

But we both know where it is
Dont we?

You surprised me.tonight.
Please dont leave me
In this life.
My best friend
My other half
My honest sight
You tell me
Bluntly
Truth
And
Honesty
Honestly
I choose
I choose
You.

And
I always.sort of have.

Thank you for all these years
By my side
Thick and thin
Bad
Good
Ugly
And terrifying
Moments of life
Death
Revive

Are you the last
Contestant
Of
The game
Show
Of my
Life?

I love you.

More than anything
And anyone
Whos ever made appearences
In my show
My game of fun
Selfishness
Lame and dumb

I think to myself
He must prove
The love
The real
He fell
I cant tell
His heart
It doesnt swell
Does it ?

Like the others
“Oh, shes a special one
Colorful and care free
Fearless and full.of fire
That even her lies are pretty
Pretty as hell
Its just what she does.

Takes hearts
Steals souls
Theyll remember
Her name
Its cold
Say it
Aloud
Do you miss me
Are you proud
Is this what you wanted
And now
I am just another face
In another crowd

No
It wont be allowed.
After a decade
Far too long
You cant walk away
Dont mark my name
Into the clouds
To fly away
With the wind
Gone
Astray
Am i high?
Off of artificial
Fake ass compounds

Oh, id love to be yours
I dont know when
Perhaps not know
But in 10 years
10 years.from now
When im dead
Dead and.gone
Remember me

For
I am
A ghost
Lost
In
A busy
Downtown
Crowd

Faces
Not
Recognizable
Bodies
Without a soul

Are you my enemy
Or are you the unity
In which my body
And heart
Which has turned
Black, Dark

Skulls
Girls
Colors
Love
Circles
Smiles
People
Vibes
Chemicals
Realities
Imagination
Day dreams

Do you think you know me ?

Take a second guess.
My mind is a never ending
Cloudy
And sad abyss

Oh, you love me
But you dont know any of this
Im happy
Life is bliss

Lacking
Voids
And fulfillness

Take my hand
Grab your rocket ship
Lets.leave
Leaving for venus
Its you
Its me
Us
Trust
Unity
Friendship
Love
Imagination
Creation
And youthfulness

Together
Forever young
Lets.leave this.all behind
And move.up on the spectrum
Momentum
Universal
Physical
Ascension

Pardon me
For grammar errors
Mispelling
Of this whole letter
Remember
“These words are my heart and soul”
You seek attentiion ?
Well heres your satisfaction.

Important information.
Logical realization.
No, wait.
Nothing in this world is
Nothing but fiction
Fixation

What we dont know
Interesting
Human beings
Alienation
Extinction
History repeating
Over and over
Rotation
Power

Regardless

Its balance
Black
White

Without this
It would be
Dull
Grey
And without life.
Think before you fight.
Without darkness
There is no light.

Without confidence
There is no fright

Without sadness
There is no happiness
Smiles
Bright
Spreading
Amazing
Skies that are bright

Without daylight
There is no night

Without wrong
There is no right

No sun
No moon
Just dust
Dusk
Unconscious
Dead

Without black
There is no life.

Without death
There is no life.

Live your life.
Be who you want.

I wont waste my life being a color.
A shade
A front

I am me

You are you

We shall be

Perfect

In unity.

MY MIND DOESNT STOP
TALKING TO ME.

Hi !!! Good night.

Youre weird
Im weird too
We can live.forever young
Forever fools
Like children
If we want to.

I love you

Stars are Blind

“You left in peace
Left me in pieces
Too hard to breathe”

You dont even know what you did to me.
Now i just wanna say im sorry

I dont ever want anyone to fall in love with me
Its just way too risky

If im not in love with them too
Karma will come back after me
Break me down all over again
When im least expecting it

Now im scared
I used to fall so fast and so hard
I just cant do it anymore.

Im left with so many scars
Ill never let anyone sweep me off my feet again
Im never going to trust a single person again
I dont even know what to think anymore
My mind is in a constant war
Please show me truth

A taste of heaven
Ended far too soon
Perhaps it was a lesson
To know what heaven feels like.

A taste of my own medicine
Those were not my intentions
I did not even take it that far
What happened was fucking harsh

I was fine all by myself
Now i want someone else
I want that more than anything
It makes me want to cry
I dont know who runs this place
Im falling from grace
So much in me has been erased

Art attack
Magic thats black
Put your coat on the rack
Sell your soul for a sack
I feel so off track
This was more than i could hack
I heard everyone clap
Was it just a trap
I dont want to attack
Someone give me a map
I need to find my way back
The time before all this crap
Someone give me some facts
Mice running from cats
All they do is laugh
I shouldnt fucking do that
But im a star at least and i live for the applause

Yet another journey

Hello again my friend.
I see you there.
Do you know its me ?
Ive come to ghost town
Where its 90 degrees.

I see you sitting in that chair.
Slumped over by the fire.
I walked a thousand miles
In the blizzarding snow.
I didnt think id see you there.

I miss you, dear friend.
I know now you watch over me.
I wish i could always visit you
im not sure why you were there
Its not where you should be.

Must i keep travelling
Or does it ever end
This world is becoming freaky
I went to a place
Too many times
I dont belong there
Now i know why they chase me.

I get bored.
The shift is sometimes good for me.
I dont want to hurt anyone.
So please dont hurt me.
Karmas already done its job.

Wont you let me come by ?
Every once in a while ?
To feel love again
And make you smile

I get scared
Its a scary place
I cant recognize anything
Or anyones face

Although its rather strange
I find it quite interesting.
I didnt mean to spill my secrets
Should i keep it to myself ?
I hope im doing the right thing
Its impossible to tell

I fell down again.
The universe pushed me down.
Im getting back up now
And going back to my hometown

Was it all a dream ?
Was it nothing but a fantasy
Imagination play time reality ?
I find it kind of funny
What is life if youre not happy ?

Do what makes you happy.
Thats all im doing.
Im sorry for hurting anyone.
Its not my intention.
Karma got me bad.
So dont worry about that.

City of angels
City of the dead
City of the living
Upside-down town
But where is heaven

Its hard to see
But everything is right here.
On this earth
Walking in circles
Set us free
Show us peace

Lost souls
Wandering
Sad and broken
Help them be ready
Fly away to the next galaxy

Ive been to hell and back too many times to count.
Ive experienced heaven in someones arms.
Ive experienced tragedy, love and loss
Ive experienced so much more than any person should.

I regret none of it.
A surreal life  is better than a boring one.
But i must live a normal life
Somehow there ive found some fun.

I learned many lessons
All in one week.
I know i had to
And have this complete.

Theres good in the bad
And bad in the good.
Love hurts.
Dont be vulnerable.
But find someone to grow old with
Its better than being alone.

“They say that evil comes disguised
Like a city of angels”

This worlds upside down
Hanging by a string
How many saviours can we find
Before we all die

Are we real
Is this a game
When i die
I want fame
Courage love sunshine and fire
Youre going to remember my name.