FIRST OF ALL – if youre getting a rise out of roasting me, laughing and cussing while you sit and play me on your ‘VLT’s…

Well, too bad. Because I used to love you. And whoever is actually standing beside me in the end… Well, I love you too. Always have always will.

(We already know who the helper is, secretly. The ‘FOB’, the’Naggery’ and ‘Grand scheme fuckery’ will begin to cease. Like a disease.) – Humankind will move forward.


my journey of ascension is basically all the elements of being human. its about loving yourself, loving your family, taking care of your health – physically, mentally, emotionally, spiritually. Its like holding up a mirror to yourself, your life, being able to be comfortable in your own skin and smiling about it. Reclaiming what you thought you lost and turning a new leaf – new chapter – taking in all cosmic knowledge – and living a brand new, beautiful and hearty life – all while fending off darkness and shining a light. 🙂

everything will be alright.

im being pulled from side to side
fighting so hard to walk a straight line
sometimes this crazy world leaves me terrified
trying so hard not go out of my mind

scared of the truth, cause maybe it just lies
im dying to keep the warmth that engulfs me inside
but my heart and my trust has been completely destroyed

im gonna keep it together, i’ll search for any sign
that what i am doing is completely alright
the future is unknown, but i cant lose sight
must always recall beauty and light

God, please help me to reclaim all that I’ve lost, and all that I need. Show me the truth and the truth I shall heed. Amen.


heres when the tedious school work ACTUALLY begins.

move those brain waves
ignite the awakening
spark up get those gears grindin
yeah, she grindin’ away

her hustle has been on point
now shes dying to prove a point
she know its do or die
but thats her choice

its time to be a big girl now
focus on pleasing even the tougher crowd
if they ever laugh in my face ..
well, i was laughin first and i’ll be laughing last too.



can we do that again sometime
where we fall to the stars and touch the sky
the citizens watched with utter delight
counting clouds and running  through the traffic lights
somehow on the ground but im seeing from somewhere high
my feet in the air, im floating, hovering, wait,

ive never felt such exhilerating heights
how was that the most adrenaline and fun ive experienced quite possibly ever.





in this scary world id want nothing than for us to be best friends, work eachother towards our goals nobody else could ever understand, empower, laughter, fucking madness completely perfectly intertwined thus connecting a large piece of the puzzle we both yearn to finish.
i know you. i know you because i am that as well. the chaos and madness and pleasure of it all. my little reality i thought was my own but indeed i have found another inhabitant.

i cant wait.



lets be fearless and do something …. well, maybe we should keep it a secret. 😉

perfection is.. Simplicity. The rhythm…

perfection is..

The rhythm and the melody.
Two souls recognition and their
musical heart beats.
Safety through their company.
Comfort in the chaotic catastrophe
Luminous, your eyes, gazing
Riding atop the traffic lights and questionable trees.
“Hush girl. Such childish dreams”
But you made them come alive
And I swear I couldnt believe my eyes
Senses heightened, moving through cloud nine
How was something so simple so perfect

How was a complicated, far-fetched, crazy little dream, fulfilled? So easily? Just like that.
Imagination is such a huge blessing. When youre a dreamer, haunted by this cruel world… Better let your inner child guide you through. “Heres to never growing up”

So. Why was a simple task so beautiful and enlightening and just magical through my eyes.
With all these tools we have brought together to the table. We can do whatever our little hearts dreams desires.

A their minds, wishes and imagination complimented eachother quite nicely..


“we can just run them red lights”

red lights, tiesto

the tools are faith, trust, & patience

and he showed  her the universe.
but he needed her to do it with him.

because theirs were the same. it  belonged to them.

they went fishing in the milky way and found something….


waiting for you to snap back to reality
waiting for this proof that im never even gonna see
waiting until the day where you finally look and notice me
i wait until the darkness fades and i get to reclaim all of my broken dreams

cause right now my life’s lacking meaning and im incomplete